When sometimes you have a bunch full of your own thorns in life, even if its all flowers you try and avoid company. This weekend I had decided to stay alone and spend some time writing and doing things I like my way. For this I even didn't go out with Ma and Pa to Vaisno Devi. I am not the greatest fan of someone up there called God but I love the trek. I love walking that long stretch up the hill - you return back with aching thighs but a lot more active than what you are at home. At least it works for me.also, it was ma and pa's 30th Anniversary on 13th Dec and I wanted them to be by themselves and explore if there is that little streak of happiness and love left in them. I hope they have.
I fell a little ill on Thu so it was decided that I wouldn't go. To my bad luck Ma called S to stay with me. I have known her for a long time now, like really long, more than 10 years for sure. She is fine to talk to and since her Mum is good friends with Ma our friendship has lasted pretty long. She can be a little mean and is all the time sarcastic. Full of negativity, she can hardly say something positive. She came home with a dump-load of issues to be discussed and out went my peace. I could not write, relax or anything. She was bossing me around and cribbing and all melancholy all the time. I just didn't know what to do.
Even though she is gone now, I am still a little irritated by her ever comparing and envious nature. Maybe I will have my peace once I am leave for Bangalore. I will be meeting M there and staying with him. Its been so long that I have loved and caressed him. So long that I have even kissed him. I miss him every single day that passes by. My ever-growing love for him remains the same though - he is the most amazing person I have known. I love you with all my heart.
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