How many times so I have to go through this ordeal to understand that people don’t understand me. In tears again, sleepless and pensive. I am done with questioning “why did he/she do that to me ?”.Why do I even let people come so close to me so they have the advantage of hurting me?
Either I am just plain dumb like everyone says I am or I am just too nice for this world to be in. Another act of faith that’s ruthlessly burnt my spirit to ashes. I thought I saw a friend in him. All I got is misery and pain. The same old “fun for a while, pain in the end” kind of deal.
Why can’t I have permanent people in my life? – every single time I have to start anew. Build myself stronger and yet again do I commit the same folly of trusting someone with all my heart. What happens next is what I have in my eyes right now – Tears.
I hope this phoenix will rise and glide again – Only this time stronger, wiser and for much longer – maybe a lifetime.
I am tired and somehow feel incomplete – feelings are all what I am. Life is what I feel. How are people like the way they are? – ruthless and lifeless. Don’t they see life like I do? Don’t they ever think of me like I think they do?
Another stone in their path kicked to the side. And where am I now. Lost again and clueless of what went past me. Deranged and engulfed in sorrows.
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