License to bitch # 2

Adversities of being in a gameshow ::::::::::::::F.A.T loser

>Fame
>Attention
>Title
Learnt it all. You aint a kid to understand the above mentioned or are you ?
Fame is like lust; the more you get drawn to it the more you crave for it. You cant abstain yourself from diving into the pleasures of it. You end up going so far that u never realise its eating you up from the inside and dwelling a void within you. Ok! i made it sound really bad. Ahem Ahem! Well its not so bad actually. Its hard to live upto true fame. Its infamy that follows most of the cases. You are envied so much that you actually fail to live upto it. A single foil in the process of reaching an unblemished state of fame can cause you to retire. So don't lose hope alright. As i have already mentioned, I was never made for fame. I have agreed upon this instance that i stated once and for all. Somehow people end up hating you no matter what you do and why you do. They wouldnt understand you or your thought process involved in the minutest of decisions. They will be always there to question you and claim their warrant to truth. So honoured men and women, i am off your list to compete for fame. Get swooned into its wonders and let me know. I would be right here waiting for you with a patient ear.
Attention is another thing that i cant really relate to. I am confused about this one. At times i am a loner. Actually most of the times. There are times when i suffer from Attention Deficiency Syndrome(ADS -thats what my friend A calls it). Well ADS is also very weird in my case. Even if people give me attention while in this state, i still feel lonely somehow. How odd is that? I dont go sad since Sad doesnt exist in my vocabulary of emotions anymore but i happen to pick up some pesimistic ideas in such a state of being. I need to work on this one. Its foolish that i crave for attention and even though i get it, i still feel the void within me. Alas! a new mystery to explore and i thought i knew myself so well. Attention in the case of gameshows is unwanted for me all the time. I like to socialize but when a big chunk of the humankind wants to know you. It becomes boring. Its like repeating the same instances again and again and again. Borrriiiinnnng!!!! I wish people had things to talk about other than beauty, career and attributes. I am not selling myself to the world. Uh huh!!! So hold on honey. Thats where i say Stop. Dont push me too hard, you might just topple yourself trying to know me. Incase you have querries, please read my blog. I am not an arrogant bitch but i do get bored at times.
Titles are the most impressive things you get being on a gameshow. Well people have recently called me a slut, a bitch, a fakie, nice, confusing,dumb,cunning, weirdo, pagal, insane and blah blah blah. Which one of those are true? Convince me and i might just believe them all. People have a problem with me spreading my love and kisses. Yes, did you ever wonder that could be a problem to all this. Even i fail to reckon it. That is absolute truth though. If you spread love more than needed people come on to bite you. They dont envy your presence, they hate it. People seriously my love is for everyone. I hope a day comes when you shall believe me. Despair!!!

So basically that makes me a Big F.A.T loser ...hehehe...you really hope that was true. dont you. But sorry to dissapoint you, i m still smiling and still happy. Ask me how and i would just grin back at you.